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Thursday, 26 June 2008

  • i ran into Honesty recently.
    as i unscruntched my sock that was in the pile of laundry some random stranger took out of the dryer,
    i found a twenty dollar bill.

Monday, 16 June 2008

  • far ago in the beginnings of time, when the spirits of entropy inhabited the depths of the only sea, when God himself did flap his wings over the waves of nothingness, the spirit that would come to be bezalel, who was in the shadow of God, asked himself if there was such a thing as a true accident, only to be overheard by adriel, who flew in the heights of the lands before earth.

    somewhere in the fabric of all of this, adriel interrupted the streams of thought in bezalel, one can puncture the chain of cause and effect, one can tweak the flow of the universe, and the Creator is the author of this power.

    bezalel's halo intensified to the color of curiosity.  if He has authored this power then he alone wields it, bezalel thought.

    no, not He alone, for the God who writes desires community, and with only one who knows this power, balance is lost.

Tuesday, 19 February 2008

  • today i went to a catholic service/music thing.  i had previously discredited the entire catholic realm because of stupid doctrinal differences, but tonight i felt the Spirit of God in such a way that i cannot believe that those differences matter anymore.  the Spirit that made me feel the intesnse joy tonight is the same Spirit i was baptized into when i was fifteen, which is the same Spirit that makes me marvel at the creation.  as i kneeled on the thing in the pew, i felt like i was immersed in sweet thick water of God.  the notes played on the cello sunk my mind into worship: into putting my God into perspective.  i write this so that people may know that the Spirit of God does not cling to any one human made brand of religion.  He is universal. 

Sunday, 17 February 2008

  • i'm not insane, just, ok ok, maybe the chemistry is getting to me a little, but it's ok if chem makes me crazy, it also makes people a bit psychic i think, just like some levels of math.
    in the meantime, i have to think about writing a paper about omni-benevolence and evil. and omnipotence. 

    it's like one event seeds so many others (i spoke of this with katie:) the butterfly effect can be studied on a much simpler level by looking at people's lifetimes. if i hadn't taken a certain class, i would not know somebody in high school that influenced my way of thinking that caused me to pursue a certain career and meet someone i would not have if i had not known that high school person, by the way, this is hypothetical.
    in a real case for me: if i had not been in group six as a freshman, i would not have known a friend that referred me to the a position that would get me to meet a person who encouraged me too look for and internship for whose experience might cause me to get future positions.  because of group six?!
    katie, can you come up with a way to melt destiny into our beliefs? i might try to find a way but probably not.

Thursday, 14 February 2008

  • we're in a bubble: the people on the outside are trying to get our attention, but we keep on, knowing that inside the bubble is safety and magic, and that outside the bubble, people are trying to distract us from the goal.  actually, it's a vague goal. the drawings of angels give rise to the idea that there must be a balance to the universe, because there are even diverse types of celestial beings: angels, spirits, faeries, goblins, gnomes, and all sorts of other "creatures".
    (doodling, the universe, silly putty, plants, genes)